The trouble with not updating for several weeks is that it becomes
hard to write anything at all. There’s a
backup of information, and the task of sifting through the sand for bits of
gold is daunting. And of course, all my
PCV buddies have more or less beaten me to the punch in terms of blogging about
recent highlights, and seeing as I read all their blogs, it’s a bit tough to
say anything original.
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Information
October 17th
to 28th was In-Service Training in Surabaya. The 26 remaining PCVs
from my group were shacked up together in a hotel for two weeks, where we
attended approximately six thousand sessions on teaching, safety &
security, and a sprinkling of other topics (medical, our feelings, cultural,
language). One teaching counterpart of
each Volunteer was invited to attend the last three days of the Training, which
were basically dedicated to improving teamwork and communication. Ambitious boy that I am, I co-facilitated two
sessions (one for PCVs only, one for PCVs + Counterparts). Days would last from about 8am to 5pm, with a
one-hour break for lunch. The nights
were free.
The 2nd
Annual PC Indonesia Badminton Tournament,
won by Nicole and Pak Winarto, was held in a stifling sauna that someone must
have confused for a gymnasium. Yours
truly teamed with Megan from Peace Corps staff and appeared in the very first match
of the tourney. Under the glare of a
thousand eyes, we handily dispatched our loathsome foes, Betsy and Cody. Confidence running high, we were eviscerated
in the second round by the eventual runners-up, Heru and Brianna.
The PC Indo
Halloween Party and Costume Contest was held in my hotel room.
I will leave you with some links to the pictures, which are great. I’m not gonna say I was shafted in the
costume contest, because I think the best man won, but I think my
cloud/pillow/sheet/flying squirrel/ghost/pious Muslim woman/toga/chameleon
costume was worth an honorable mention. Most embarrassing moment: Accidentally
hitting PCV Whitney in the face in the middle of a party game when my face was
covered.
For pics of the Party and Badminton Tournament, take a peek at Dan's Post, Elle's Post, and Nicole's Post
For pics of the Party and Badminton Tournament, take a peek at Dan's Post, Elle's Post, and Nicole's Post
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Some thoughts, in whatever order
they come to me
Surabaya might as well be a different planet from Kandangan (where
I live). The malls are tall enough to
house Saturn V rockets. You can buy
alcohol, and even more shocking you can see people drinking it. Some women wear clothing that doesn't cover
their knees. There are coffee shops and
restaurants with “ethnic” food. People
don’t really stare at you for being foreign.
You can go out at night, and there are still shops open. It’s a completely different side of
Indonesia. I can’t even imagine what
it’s like in Jakarta.
In Surabaya, you can just feel the hunger to become Western. But out here in the countryside, where I
live, the mentality is utterly different and the culture is solidly
traditional. I wonder, as relative
European and American power wane over the next few decades, will Indonesia (and
the rest of the developing world) find some other model to emulate? What would a world that wasn’t Westernizing even look like, and how would I feel about
it? As it is, watching people trade in
misguided tradition for misguided modernity evokes ambivalence. All I wonder when I walk through a nine-floor
shopping mall is: This is progress?
Then I come back to the countryside and think how desperately this
place needs to move forward, how a few “Western” lessons could solve so many
problems the people face. And then I
remember how Westerners don’t seem any happier to me than Indonesians. And then I think that maybe the happiness
here is superficial. And then I think
what’s the difference? And I just end up
feeling confused, at least as far as society is concerned. Being in this country has reduced the scope
of my ambition. I don’t even know what would be healthy
for humanity, how can I hope to “save” it in any meaningful way?
My mind keeps going back to Voltaire’s maxim: Tend your own garden. In a
way, this service is making me more individualistic than I already was. Where it concerns myself, I’m pretty certain
what kind of change is good or bad, so I can endeavor to effect it with
conviction. For the rest of the universe
and everything in it, I’m not so sure what’s best or how to get there. At this moment, my best wisdom is just to
take care of my own garden and hope the neighbors feel inspired when they look
at it.
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The last day in Surabaya and the few days after getting back to
Kandangan were rough, mentally speaking.
My head was so incredibly full of information and thoughts and emotions,
it was terribly difficult to concentrate.
I started feeling better after writing a long, meandering entry in my
paper journal.
Some of my personal highlights/random notes from Surabaya:
·
As I wrote, I co-facilitated a
couple of the sessions for IST. The
first was with PCV Luke, the second with PCV Sarah and my counterpart, Ms.
Ani. It was an absolute delight to work
with Americans again. Even though
planning for our sessions meant that I couldn’t socialize for a couple of
nights, it was a great feeling to prepare and deliver presentations for the
benefit of my friends. It was also great
to speak in front of Americans. It felt
like really meaningful work. The
positive feedback I got from some of my peers, especially for the second
presentation, made me feel better than all the combined compliments I’ve
received from locals for the last seven months.
·
I stood on a scale in Surabaya
and found that I’ve lost between 10 and 15 pounds since coming to Indonesia,
depending on water weight. That is not
insignificant, since there wasn’t so much of me to begin with. Still, my weight loss has not been the most
extreme among the group. I don’t really
see how I can gain that weight back on the local diet, but I hope that my
weight has stabilized, because I don’t want to go south of 140.
·
I absolutely love spending time
with other PCVs. The more I get to know
them, the more I like them and the more I appreciate the fabulous diversity of
their personalities. Just being able to
float from one small group of Volunteers to the next and feel attached to all
them was an amazing feeling. It was also
a pleasure to get better acquainted with the visiting ID-4s (that is, the PCVs
from the group that arrived a year before I did [I am an ID-5]). Specific shout outs to Luke, Sam, Sarah, and
Noel—who is in Hawaii, the b----.
·
I got to eat food that wasn’t
rice or noodles.
·
Oh man, I almost forgot. I was rooming with Cody, and we had to move
to a different room after a week because
there were bed bugs. He had a bunch
of itchy red bite-mark things on his ankles and arms. I had a bunch of red dots
on my hands and creeping up my arms (and
even a few on my face), but mine didn’t itch and looked more like sea lice than
bites. Either there was a different kind
of bug in my sheets or I just have a convenient resistance to the bites of
bedbugs. We took the minifridge with us
when we moved to our new, smaller room.
The hotel did all our laundry for free, but it took them two days, so
for a day and a half Cody and I looked like ruffians in the sessions.
·
I wore a sarong to the training
sessions for a couple days because I didn’t have any clean pants. I expected to be chastised, but people seemed
rather impressed.
·
Repeat: I got to eat food that
wasn’t rice or noodles.
·
Really, a ton of other stuff
happened, but I cannot list it all and I seriously doubt whether you, dear
reader, want to continue wading through the muck of my recollections, which are
not pertinent to anything going on in your own life.
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End of an Era
I bought a
camera on my last day in Surabaya. I
figured with all the money I’ve been saving up by living like a skinflint at
site, I could afford to drop a bit on a camera.
This is actually the first camera I’ve ever bought—and so a new chapter
begins. The plan is to use it at site to
take pictures of people and help me integrate better. There are a handful of teachers whose faces I
recognize but whose names I cannot remember. A secondary consequence might be that Thought
Porridge might turn into Thought + Picture Porridge, but don’t get your hopes
up. Though I might throw in some photos
once in a while, I am not a photographer.
I hate carrying around a camera and feeling the pressure to “capture”
moments, lest they disappear forever.
Okay, I
think that about does it.
11/3/11
Well posted, sir I'm definitely on board with the confusion of evaluating "happiness" here.
ReplyDeleteI am pretty honored to have received a shout out.
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